Hi Nancy, If you've already signed up, then you might as well get the most out of your subscription. The bonus videos are great, and Chris really speaks from the heart. I know his 'hard hitting and in your face' presentation can seem too direct and off-putting for some people, but his messages resonate with me and my family, which is why we pay a subscription fee.
As for the forum, the community is still small but has been steadily growing in the past two months. This is one of the few places where you can safely share information without being branded a lunatic. Stick around, start topics on themes that interest you, and engage in discussion with others. I'm sure you'll find people who are interested in similar topics. I replied to your other thread.