Bobbi, You have no idea I am so angry with so much that has gone on, people that have no respect what so ever for each other, sheeple (I feel uncomfortable using that term) they don't see what is actually going on right before them, they do say ignorance is bliss!! If only I were ignorant!! I do feel there must be a reason for me to be alive, the only reason I mention that is because I have suicidal tendencies due to my targeting but my real friends keep trying to be there for me, others I don't care for anymore as they are so blinded by what society perceives to be the dream life!! I have cut dead wood out of my life as they are just in a world of there own not even aware of the consequences of what they do, I don't hate them I think they are probably doing what "society" movies, the music industry the shit that gets pumped into their psyche!! I do want to contribute something positive to society!! I really appreciate your advice as a woman as I have had the most disgusting crap go on around me blokes hitting on me because they have been mislead by lies!! I am a woman not a piece of meat to be ogled. I am sick of it but you are right ego is a major problem, Freud said that if the ego, id and superego are out of balance it can cause neurosis. I don't like been hit on by sleazy men!! My last two relationships were really toxic!! I don't wish to go off on a tangent!! But thank you so much for your kind words!! I did think when I first saw your profile picture that you were intuitive. I don't often say things lightly!! Indi